Kerrigan’s first tantrum

This morning started off like any other. I woke up and Jack and I prepared Kerrigan’s lunch. Jack woke Kerrigan up and I picked out an outfit for her. It was pretty chilly this morning so I was excited to dress her in the cutest little pink sweatpants and North Face, both of which I thrifted from Once Upon a Child. As I gathered up her lunchbox and my phone, wallet, and keys, Kerrigan was already waiting by the front door saying “oshide” or “shide” meaning she’s ready to go outside. So cute. I help her down the step but let her walk herself to the car. Some might call this mistake or turning point of the morning but I enjoyed letting her have some independence and walk around for a bit before buckling her up. She enjoyed this independence greatly and wanted to continue her stroll down the sidewalk, so when I attempted to buckle her into the car seat she turned into a writhing little worm. After about 10 minutes and multiple attempts I finally got her buckled up, although she was crying and had a terrible snotty nose. She cried all the way to school (7 minutes). When we arrived she continued to throw herself on the asphalt and cry. I picked her up and took her to the front walkway where she would not stand up. I finally realized she just needed a moment and allowed her to lay on her back. I gently patted her chest and talked to her and she instantly calmed and stared up at the sky for a few minutes. It was so cool watching her self regulate and I was reminded how important it is to slow down and let little people adjust to their environment on their own terms. My job as her mother is to assist her in navigating her little world. I was so proud of her for doing what she needed to do to restart her day. When she felt ready she popped up and started walking towards the door to Goddard. I know this will likely be the first of many meltdowns but I hope I’m able to help her find herself just like today. I love you Kerrigan!! You’re the best thing to ever happen to us and I’m so thankful that I get to teach you but also learn from you as well.